The Sound Of Silence; Feeling Tripawd

It’s Only Been 480 Hours Since You Crossed The Rainbow 🌈 Bridge & Got Your Angel Wings…

I’m Feeling So Tripawd Myself Without You Here TrikieLuv…

No Gifts. No Presents & No (Dog) Presence. No Stockings. No Singing. No Carols. No Candles. No Holly. No Mistletoe. No Kisses/Licks.  No Wreaths. No Watching Our Favorite Holiday Movie “A Christmas Story”. No Cards. No Letters. No Candy. No Cookies. No Christmas Eve Pizza. No Holiday Food. No Friends. No Family. No Gatherings. No Tree. No Decorations. No Lights. No Verbalizing/Talking. No Hugs. No Helicopter Tail.  No Physical Contact With Anyone. No Joy.  No Peace.

No Dog.

Just The Sound Of Silence…& The Etchings Of Tear Tracks On My Face &  My 💔 Heart…

…Wait! Is That You TrikieLuv Singing & Barking To Me Within The Silence?

Yes, Mommy! Yes! Somebody PLEASE Go Get Mommy Some F*ing Glitter Chalk So She Can Make An F*ing Body Chalk Outline Around Herself…Mommy Didn’t I Teach & Show You Better Than That??We Are HELDEN! Don’t Give Up Mommy! I Miss You Too!! Go Get Your Tattoo Of Me And/Or My Pawprint On Your Heart Mommy!  Dye Your Hair Blue Again Mommy! Blue Like Me & My Daddy “The Blue Dog”!  Legally Change Your Name To Simply HELDEN Mommy! Join A Dog Club Mommy Even Without A Dog!  Network Mommy! Talk To The Dog Trainer About Helping You To Find A Service Dog!  Talk  To The Doctor Mommy Cause You Need A Service Dog!  Learn Some German Dog Commands Mommy! You Trained My Daddy “The Blue Dog” In Japanese!  How Cool Was That! Mommy?…You Will Love Again… It Will Be Epic Mommy!…I Want You To Try Again Mommy…Like I Did My Whole ENTIRE Life Born With Only 3 Legs…Like You Did With Me…It’s A Journey Mommy…Mommy There’s A Dog And/Or Puppy Out There That Needs You Just As Much You Need Them…I Saw What Was Going Through Your Mind & Heart When I Crumpled In Your Arms For The Last Time…Awww Mommy I’m A Trailblazer…Always Have Been Always Will Be…Love Me For Who/What I Am…Let Me Be What I’m Going To Be…That’s What True Love Is & It’s What We Shared Together.  Always & Forever & Ever.  I’m Glad You Had “The It’s Okay To Go Talk” With Me On The Last Morning That I Spent With You.  That Was Very Brave Mommy. Well Baby Girl Mommy’s Not Feeling Very Brave Right Now…

Remember Our Promise To Each Other Mommy…“Mirror Mirror On The Wall, I Will Always Get Up After I Fall.  And Whether I Run, Walk, Or Crawl (Or Hop On 3 Legs Vs Limping On 4), I”ll Set My Goals And Achieve Them All.”

Mommy, Maybe It Would Help If You Told A Funny Story…I Know…The Hooker Story…No TrikieLuv, You Tell That Story…Okay Mommy…So Mommy Is Going To School For Massage Therapy (500 Hours In CA). That Means That Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays I, Princess Trikie, Get To Go To Work With My Daddy Kevin.  Kevin Is A Journey Level Carpenter & Has Done Mostly High-End Very Skilled Labor On Very Exclusive Homes/Buildings.  I Stay In The Truck To Guard It & The Tools.  Kev Parks Us In The Shade In The Forest Around Pebble Beach.  It’s Nice & Cool! There’s All Sorts Of Squirrels & Bunnies To Watch. I Can See The Ocean & The Seals Too!  Kev Walks Me Every Single Break (Mornings & Afternoons) & At Lunchtime Too!  After Work, We Go To The Beach! I LoveLoveLove The Water! I Am His Queen & He My Adoring Prince.  And Mommy Tell Daddy To Stop Crying At The Seafood Counter In The Grocery Store…It’s Okay To Enjoy (S)Lobster & Shrimp Without Me There…Anyway, Back To The Hooker Story…So Mommy Has Practical Hands-On Homework Assignments Every Week In Addition To All The Other Classroom Work…This One Week Her Assignment Is To Do A Special Needs Massage…Guess Who Gets Picked To Be The Special Needs Recipient? Me! Me! Me! Mommy Does The Massage, Fills Out All The Paperwork & Turns In Her Homework.  The Teacher (One Of The Most Awesome People Ever) Is Looking Over Mommy’s Homework & Is Wondering To Herself “TrikieLuv?Is This A Hooker Name?” “Missing Right Front Appendage From Birth?” Well, Mommy Had To Explain To The Teacher That With A Name Like TrikieLuv I Wasn’t A Hooker But A K9! Mommy’s Special K9!  Teacher Got A Good Laugh Out Of That One & Mommy Got Credit For Her Homework Too! And I Got A Massage! Mommy Did Reach Her Goal Of Completing Her 500 School Hours, Passed The MBLEX & The CA Licensing Board Requirements.

Okay, Now You Tell A Story Mommy…The Bathroom Hog Story…Oh, I Almost Forgot About That Story Baby Girl…We Lived Fully Didn’t We Baby Girl?  Yes We Did Mommy!  Okay Folks, Now About That Bathroom Hog…

Water Is Precious In CA.  Years Of Drought, Low Rainfall, & Devastating Wild Fires Have Taken Their Costly Toll.  Now Every Family Has Their Bathroom Hog.  “Hey What Are You Doing In There…?”  “Hey I Was Going To Shower Today!”  We Had The Luxury Of A Huge Bathroom With A 4’ Long Bathtub.  I As Mommy, Being The Supreme Ruler (Or So I Thought!) Really Relished The Therapeutic Soak In The Tub A Couple Of Times A Week.  Mostly It’s Showers: Wet The Body, Turn Water Off, Soap Up, Turn Water Back On, Rinse Off, Done! Even The Thought Of Relaxing In Thick Bubbly Suds Of Hot Water, Red Wine & Candle Light Is Enough To Soothe The Mommy After A Hot, Dusty, Dirty, Labor-Intensive Day On The Property. We Worked Hard Too. Not A lot Of Luxuries: No TV, No Internet, No Phone & No Car.  Books Yes! Jigsaw Puzzles Galore! A Few Movies Sure! Plenty Of Dog Training Yes!  Dogs Training The Mommy To Spoil Them ROTTEN – Even More Time For That!! As Supreme Ruler Of The Household (Hahaha), I, As The Mommy,  Am Filling Up The Bathtub, Adding Bubble Bath To The Water, Lighting Candles & Pouring A Glass Of Red Wine To Sip, Soak & Relax In The Tub. The Tub Is Deep, The Water Comfortably Hot, My Bathmat Is Plushy & My Towels Are Soft, Thick & Thirsty. Everything Is In Readiness For Supreme Ruler To Relax In The Tub…Now Unbeknownst To The Supreme Ruler, Someone Has Sneaked Into The Bathroom & Is Lurking In The Separate Shower Stall. Hiding. Waiting.  The Lurker Makes Her Move When The Coast Is Clear. The Candles Are Flickering & The Lights Are Low. Supreme Ruler Hears Wild Splashing & Yips, Singing & Squeals Of Delight Coming From The Bathroom…From The Tub…Emerging From The Depths Of The Bubble-Covered Water Like Nessie From Loch Ness Is The REAL Supreme Ruler: TrikieLuv.  “Splish  Splash I Was Taking A Bath”…Does The Usurper Reliquish The Tub: No A Resounding NO!!  Well, This Taking Over Of The Bathtub Before The Mommy Even Got In It Became A Regular Thing.  Many Times We Shared The Tub Soak Before Our Nightly Movie & Popcorn Bed-In. Yes Mommy, That Was Very Dog Of You To Just Let It Be!  You Did A Good Job Of “Be More Dog”. For A Natural Born Tripawd,  TrikieLuv Was An Excellent Strong Swimmer.  I’m Glad You Loved The Water Baby Girl.  Me Too Mommy! You Were Such A Sneak Little Girl… I Know Mommy! I Will Be Such A Hard Act To Follow Mommy…I Know My Lovely Girl…

Hey, Somebody Out There Needs To Kick Mommy’s Booty And/Or Scrape Her Up Off The Pavement If She’s Down…Pick Yourself Up Mommy…Be More Dog Mommy…

Mommy… Play The New Song..Not The Sad One…Play The Happy One… Turn It Up Real Loud At 0:55 Mommy…

Okay My Baby…

Be The Lyrics Mommy…Survive & Stand Another Day Mommy… RIDE ON Mommy…I Swear On My 3 Legs That Your Heart Will Mend Mommy…Be Our Hero Mommy…

Helden

 

5 thoughts on “The Sound Of Silence; Feeling Tripawd”

  1. Oh my dog.. oh man.. I am crying .. and smiling. Such a special relationship. I feel honored that you shared that, and I know it did your heart good to get that out.
    OMG the hooker story… I laughed my @ss off!! But lurking in the shower took me over the edge!
    So much love… oh so much.
    Your TrikieLuv is all over it mama. Never forget that her essence will always be with you. And damn if she doesn’t have so much wonderful advice for her mama. Listen to her, she is a very wise pup.
    Lol, I just did my makeup for a video call with my family that is 1000 miles away and I have mascara smearing down my cheeks. Lol!
    You write in a way that brought me right there, and I am sending you a huge breathtaking hug.
    I am so very sorry that you lost your girl. You watch, she will send you signs, and your Angel will always watch over you.

    Sending much love,

    Jackie and Huckleberry 💖

  2. Oh wow, that was fantastic, thank you! I am a huge Disturbed fan, and a total music junkie. I will be a rock and roller forever and i have always wanted to see Blue Man Group. That was great, thank you.
    Big hugs, I know this is a tough time for you. You can laugh, but music fills me in the darkest of times.

    Xoxoxo

  3. I don’t even know 2hat yo say!!! It has taken me a couple of reads and re-reading to absorb all the wisdom TrikieLuv has imparted to us! And with so much wit too!!

    This needs to be a “go-to” resource for anyone stuck in grief. TrikieLuv conveys what every furbaby wants from their hoomans….to immerse ourselves into the gloriously happy times we shared day in and day out!!! TrikeLuv has given you step-by-step directions on how to CELEBRATE life and how to continue to stay connected even after the Soul jumps out of their borrowed earth clothes!

    Yes, we hoomans grieve. That’s what we do when we love hard.

    Thank you sooooo much fior sharing rhis beautiful….hmm….beautiful….teachings from a Wise Soul named TrikieLuv!! And I love, love, love the DELIGHTFUL memories and all the specialness of her personality !!!

    And just as she is staying connected with you, you stay connected with us, okay? We would love hearing more!!

    With love,
    Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!

  4. https://youtu.be/o9gK2fOq4MY
    This Must Be The Place: Tripawds & TrikieLuv in my heart.

    Yes, TrikieLuv had her sarcastic (sometimes sar-custic) humor about her hence the glitter chalk body outline reference…

    Please feel free to share the post for any & all grieving fur-baby parents…

    Thank you so much for your thoughts 💙

    💙Helden💙 🐾🐾🐾

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