You’ve Not Been Out Of Bed For Some Weeks Now…I Know My Darling. It Just Seems So Pointless Without You…
Remember Our Mirror Mirror Promise Mommy (See previous posts)…You Have To Get Out Of Bed Mommy…You Have To Eat Mommy…You Have To Talk Mommy…Gggrrrr…You Are Really Spoiling Heaven For Me As I Am So Worried About You & Daddy. Mommy…Hey, When I Got Here I Was Offered The Option Of 4 Legs! Imagine That! What The Heck Am I Going To Do With Another Leg? I Was Born PERFECT With 3 Already! Anyway I Thought You’d Find That As Funny As I Did…That Is Funny Baby Girl…
Mommy!! I Got Offered A Job!! In Heaven!! Because I Was Born Tripawd & Cause Of You&Me & Our Journey Together & The Fortitude & Courage We Developed Together..Cause We Are Helden…I Got Offered A VERY SPECIAL POSTING!!!!!!! Oh Mommy I Really Want To Do It!!!! I Get To Visit Every Dog & Cat That’s About To Become A Tripawd To Help Comfort Them & Help Guide Them. Maybe Their Humans Will Sense/See Me; Maybe The Humans Won’t But All The New Tripawd Cat & Dogs Will See Us Very Special Helpers! All Us Animals Born/Made Tripawd Get Offered This Very Special Posting & I Am A Natural For This, Being A Trailblazer And All, A Protecter Of The Sick, Weak & Innocent & Potentially Strong! But You Gotta Throw Away The Glitter Chalk Mommy (see previous posts) & Buck Up…I Promise To Stop In Whenever I Can To Try To Help You Mommy…But You Gotta Do What You Gotta Do To Help Yourself Cause I Am Gonna Be Real Busy With My New Job…Mommy, Was Not That The Very Poignant Point Of Our Time Together…To Realize How Lucky We Were To Have Found Each Other, To GROW, & To Spend Over 8 Years Together…I Love You Mommy 💙…I Love You Too Baby Girl TrikieLuv💙… Baby Girl, You Go Do Your New Posting! You’re Going To Be Awesome! Just Like You Always Were & Continue To Be! Mommy Will Always Be Here In Your Cheering Section Rooting For You!😘 The New Tripawds Need You…RIDE ON TrikieLuv💙
Mommy Will Stand & Survive & RIDE On Cause We Are:
It’s Only Been 480 Hours Since You Crossed The Rainbow 🌈 Bridge & Got Your Angel Wings…
I’m Feeling So Tripawd Myself Without You Here TrikieLuv…
No Gifts. No Presents & No (Dog) Presence. No Stockings. No Singing. No Carols. No Candles. No Holly. No Mistletoe. No Kisses/Licks. No Wreaths. No Watching Our Favorite Holiday Movie “A Christmas Story”. No Cards. No Letters. No Candy. No Cookies. No Christmas Eve Pizza. No Holiday Food. No Friends. No Family. No Gatherings. No Tree. No Decorations. No Lights. No Verbalizing/Talking. No Hugs. No Helicopter Tail. No Physical Contact With Anyone. No Joy. No Peace.
No Dog.
Just The Sound Of Silence…& The Etchings Of Tear Tracks On My Face & My 💔 Heart…
…Wait! Is That You TrikieLuv Singing & Barking To Me Within The Silence?
Yes, Mommy! Yes! Somebody PLEASE Go Get Mommy Some F*ing Glitter Chalk So She Can Make An F*ing Body Chalk Outline Around Herself…Mommy Didn’t I Teach & Show You Better Than That??We Are HELDEN! Don’t Give Up Mommy! I Miss You Too!! Go Get Your Tattoo Of Me And/Or My Pawprint On Your Heart Mommy! Dye Your Hair Blue Again Mommy! Blue Like Me & My Daddy “The Blue Dog”! Legally Change Your Name To Simply HELDEN Mommy! Join A Dog Club Mommy Even Without A Dog! Network Mommy! Talk To The Dog Trainer About Helping You To Find A Service Dog! Talk To The Doctor Mommy Cause You Need A Service Dog! Learn Some German Dog Commands Mommy! You Trained My Daddy “The Blue Dog” In Japanese! How Cool Was That! Mommy?…You Will Love Again… It Will Be Epic Mommy!…I Want You To Try Again Mommy…Like I Did My Whole ENTIRE Life Born With Only 3 Legs…Like You Did With Me…It’s A Journey Mommy…Mommy There’s A Dog And/Or Puppy Out There That Needs You Just As Much You Need Them…I Saw What Was Going Through Your Mind & Heart When I Crumpled In Your Arms For The Last Time…Awww Mommy I’m A Trailblazer…Always Have Been Always Will Be…Love Me For Who/What I Am…Let Me Be What I’m Going To Be…That’s What True Love Is & It’s What We Shared Together. Always & Forever & Ever. I’m Glad You Had “The It’s Okay To Go Talk” With Me On The Last Morning That I Spent With You. That Was Very Brave Mommy. Well Baby Girl Mommy’s Not Feeling Very Brave Right Now…
Remember Our Promise To Each Other Mommy…“Mirror Mirror On The Wall, I Will Always Get Up After I Fall. And Whether I Run, Walk, Or Crawl (Or Hop On 3 Legs Vs Limping On 4), I”ll Set My Goals And Achieve Them All.”
Mommy, Maybe It Would Help If You Told A Funny Story…I Know…The Hooker Story…No TrikieLuv, You Tell That Story…Okay Mommy…So Mommy Is Going To School For Massage Therapy (500 Hours In CA). That Means That Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays I, Princess Trikie, Get To Go To Work With My Daddy Kevin. Kevin Is A Journey Level Carpenter & Has Done Mostly High-End Very Skilled Labor On Very Exclusive Homes/Buildings. I Stay In The Truck To Guard It & The Tools. Kev Parks Us In The Shade In The Forest Around Pebble Beach. It’s Nice & Cool! There’s All Sorts Of Squirrels & Bunnies To Watch. I Can See The Ocean & The Seals Too! Kev Walks Me Every Single Break (Mornings & Afternoons) & At Lunchtime Too! After Work, We Go To The Beach! I LoveLoveLove The Water! I Am His Queen & He My Adoring Prince. And Mommy Tell Daddy To Stop Crying At The Seafood Counter In The Grocery Store…It’s Okay To Enjoy (S)Lobster & Shrimp Without Me There…Anyway, Back To The Hooker Story…So Mommy Has Practical Hands-On Homework Assignments Every Week In Addition To All The Other Classroom Work…This One Week Her Assignment Is To Do A Special Needs Massage…Guess Who Gets Picked To Be The Special Needs Recipient? Me! Me! Me! Mommy Does The Massage, Fills Out All The Paperwork & Turns In Her Homework. The Teacher (One Of The Most Awesome People Ever) Is Looking Over Mommy’s Homework & Is Wondering To Herself “TrikieLuv?Is This A Hooker Name?” “Missing Right Front Appendage From Birth?” Well, Mommy Had To Explain To The Teacher That With A Name Like TrikieLuv I Wasn’t A Hooker But A K9! Mommy’s Special K9! Teacher Got A Good Laugh Out Of That One & Mommy Got Credit For Her Homework Too! And I Got A Massage! Mommy Did Reach Her Goal Of Completing Her 500 School Hours, Passed The MBLEX & The CA Licensing Board Requirements.
Okay, Now You Tell A Story Mommy…The Bathroom Hog Story…Oh, I Almost Forgot About That Story Baby Girl…We Lived Fully Didn’t We Baby Girl? Yes We Did Mommy! Okay Folks, Now About That Bathroom Hog…
Water Is Precious In CA. Years Of Drought, Low Rainfall, & Devastating Wild Fires Have Taken Their Costly Toll. Now Every Family Has Their Bathroom Hog. “Hey What Are You Doing In There…?” “Hey I Was Going To Shower Today!” We Had The Luxury Of A Huge Bathroom With A 4’ Long Bathtub. I As Mommy, Being The Supreme Ruler (Or So I Thought!) Really Relished The Therapeutic Soak In The Tub A Couple Of Times A Week. Mostly It’s Showers: Wet The Body, Turn Water Off, Soap Up, Turn Water Back On, Rinse Off, Done! Even The Thought Of Relaxing In Thick Bubbly Suds Of Hot Water, Red Wine & Candle Light Is Enough To Soothe The Mommy After A Hot, Dusty, Dirty, Labor-Intensive Day On The Property. We Worked Hard Too. Not A lot Of Luxuries: No TV, No Internet, No Phone & No Car. Books Yes! Jigsaw Puzzles Galore! A Few Movies Sure! Plenty Of Dog Training Yes! Dogs Training The Mommy To Spoil Them ROTTEN – Even More Time For That!! As Supreme Ruler Of The Household (Hahaha), I, As The Mommy, Am Filling Up The Bathtub, Adding Bubble Bath To The Water, Lighting Candles & Pouring A Glass Of Red Wine To Sip, Soak & Relax In The Tub. The Tub Is Deep, The Water Comfortably Hot, My Bathmat Is Plushy & My Towels Are Soft, Thick & Thirsty. Everything Is In Readiness For Supreme Ruler To Relax In The Tub…Now Unbeknownst To The Supreme Ruler, Someone Has Sneaked Into The Bathroom & Is Lurking In The Separate Shower Stall. Hiding. Waiting. The Lurker Makes Her Move When The Coast Is Clear. The Candles Are Flickering & The Lights Are Low. Supreme Ruler Hears Wild Splashing & Yips, Singing & Squeals Of Delight Coming From The Bathroom…From The Tub…Emerging From The Depths Of The Bubble-Covered Water Like Nessie From Loch Ness Is The REAL Supreme Ruler: TrikieLuv. “Splish Splash I Was Taking A Bath”…Does The Usurper Reliquish The Tub: No A Resounding NO!! Well, This Taking Over Of The Bathtub Before The Mommy Even Got In It Became A Regular Thing. Many Times We Shared The Tub Soak Before Our Nightly Movie & Popcorn Bed-In. Yes Mommy, That Was Very Dog Of You To Just Let It Be! You Did A Good Job Of “Be More Dog”. For A Natural Born Tripawd, TrikieLuv Was An Excellent Strong Swimmer. I’m Glad You Loved The Water Baby Girl. Me Too Mommy! You Were Such A Sneak Little Girl… I Know Mommy! I Will Be Such A Hard Act To Follow Mommy…I Know My Lovely Girl…
Hey, Somebody Out There Needs To Kick Mommy’s Booty And/Or Scrape Her Up Off The Pavement If She’s Down…Pick Yourself Up Mommy…Be More Dog Mommy…
Mommy… Play The New Song..Not The Sad One…Play The Happy One… Turn It Up Real Loud At 0:55 Mommy…
Okay My Baby…
Be The Lyrics Mommy…Survive & Stand Another Day Mommy… RIDE ON Mommy…I Swear On My 3 Legs That Your Heart Will Mend Mommy…Be Our Hero Mommy…
HELDEN: Heroes & The Struggle To Stay True To The Quest; A Christmas Story; Learning To Say Goodbye; Letting Go; Being In The Now; Sweet & Sour
Dear TrikieLuv,
So many themes running through my heart & mind today as I sit here weeping.
As I watch my little girl pant for breath, I remember you as a just-born puppy on the Summer Solstice Father’s Day Sunday 2010 at 17:48 and my horror and distress of having a tripawd infant.
10 days after you were born, your dog momma stopped taking care of you & your sisters & I took total care of you all. Teaching you how to roll to the left side where your only front leg was. Teaching you the Single Leg Push-Up before your eyes were even open. Watching you slither on your chest, back legs pushing you along before your front leg got strong enough to get you up. Wanting to pick you up & carry you everywhere but I know I can’t as that will certainly doom you. You finally getting up on 3 legs and wobbling about. Deciding to keep you for myself because you were the only one to look like your Doberman father. Admiring your Pibble-headed stubborn streak inherited from your mother on accomplishing a goal. Fending off all the offers I had for you when people wanted you for their puppy. Fast forward to five months old, now you are a big girl, having had perfect house manners since the age of six weeks old, and you insisting on using the stairs instead of the little ramp I made for you. Fast forward to 2 years old and now you can run so fast that we call you “3 (Legs) Like 6”. This is also the summer that you discover a taste for lobster. Daddy brought home 2 lobster tails wrapped in paper to grill. You made a beeline for the package & would not leave his side until you got a bites of that lobster. Of course you didn’t want the butter dip. It got to the point we were calling you “Slobster Girl” cause you were so crazy for lobster, along with your love for shrimp & White albacore Tuna. Your back legs are so strong that you’ve got a big J-Lo booty on you.
Fast forward to age 7, with Daddy taking you to the beach regularly at least twice a week & you showing signs and interest in following the surfers out into the waves.
Trikie, I hope I can behave as much a Hero during this part of our quest as you yourself are doing now and have done your whole life on 3 legs and a ticking time bomb heart. You’re not weeping & carrying on. Here you are, wagging your tail & trying to comfort me, You being Mommy’s wuzzle girl. It’s ironic that your heart is now considered too big (cardiomyopathy) as that is why I love you so much. Nobody could ever make that charge stick on me. I hope that I properly appreciate the time I have left with you in the physical plane. Because all anyone ever has is NOW. Right NOW, this very moment. Yesterday is gone never to return & Tomorrow is not yet here and never promised. I hope that your new heart meds will let you stay comfortable with us for a good long time yet. I hope I can still find joy, happiness and pleasure in life after you are gone. I guess that this is the Sweet & Sour portion of the meal. Got to have the two elements so you can tell what’s what.
Tuesday December 4th 12:10: TrikieLuv got her angel wings.